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hello everybody!!! HAPPY 2019! holy cow, did 2018 FLY BY! anyways, I hope that you all had a fresh start to the new year!!! which you know what that means!!!! RESOLUTIONS BABY! (betcha saw that one coming) I have a few thoughts on the expectations as I personally am transitioning from a dark, weird, confusing place in my life. I am also gonna tack on how to overcome these expectations by learning how to re-commit your life to Jesus. First of all, we set expectations for many things: the new year, ourselves, certain events, and even OTHERS & it's important to realize the standards we set for these types of things in our lives.   why expectations need to just GO OUT THE WINDOW! since many of you are aware that this has been the toughest 3 months of my entire LIFE,  I enjoy opening up and being honest about everything I feel although some of my feelings are incredibly hard to put into words, especially when speaking. that's why blogging/writing/journali...

HELLO BLOG PALS!!!  me & my cutie roommate that i ADORE, katie leffers, ILY long long LONG time no see, and I hate to say this but it is solely because I have been the most unmotivated, discouraged WOMAN ON THE FACE OF THIS PLANET! yes i said it!!  soOooOo, I'm a college gal now!!! WHOOO! super exciting y'all!!! and yes it most certainly is... to some extent. MAN, am I overwhelmed with this new life!!! school, new relationships, keeping up with my family's life at home, a long distance relationship with my man (shout out J. Miller!!!) it has all been so drastically different from the life I knew!! keep reading if u dare... MWaaAaHaAaHA!! (sorry, fresh outta spooky szn!!!) Remembering who God is & seeing yourself THROUGH the hard seasons referring to my post about being vulnerable, I am going to be completely honest. I have never felt more lost and far away from God in my life!!! and boy, does it hurt! I feel numb, and not like myself. I'm sure tho...

This year, March 3rd to be exact, I became “of age” as they say, I became 18!!!! soooo, naturally, I looked up all of the super awesome things I can do as a legal adult!!! I can vote!!! I can get a tattoo!!! I can buy lotto tickets!!! I can buy fireworks!!! I can buy cigarettes!!! I can get kicked out of the house… I can be sued… I can go to prison… I can make a will… okay YIKES!!!  anyways… hahaha… now that I was a big girl… I started to get the big tough question majority of 18 year olds have no idea the answer to. “What are your plans after high school?”  I quickly realized that the best answer to that question was “I’m waiting on a sign from God” because no one can argue with that answer right??? I know some of you have gone through high school, college, have careers, but… do you ever still find yourself asking God what your purpose is? I’m here to tell you that a purpose that we have as followers of Christ is sharing the J...

Vulnerability: It's okay to cry! I don't know about you guys but do you ever have those days when you think about all of the stressors in your life such as school, family problems, friend drama, or even just that huge pile of laundry that has been sitting in your basket for 3 weeks just STARING at you waiting to be folded because I HIGHLY relate. You think, (or even yell) "Wow, my life is a mess. I am a mess. WHY ME?!" Usually for me, breaking down and crying occurs once every two weeks give or take. When I cry, I feel empty. Like the sun will not come up tomorrow, like I just looked in the fridge and someone ate my leftover Chinese food. (this is actually the worst, not kidding). I feel weak. I feel scared. I feel alone. But for some odd reason, I feel so much better after I cry. I feel human. I am reminded that life is not all sunshine and rainbows. And that's okay. Be honest with your feelings & talk to God I have realized that vulner...

Self worth is something that I am sure that everyone struggles with. It seems like someone is always better than you. Prettier, funnier, more out-going, better at a sport, nicer, more fun, or happy and the list goes on and on. Comparing yourself to others sucks. It leaves you feeling less-than. The basic advice many give is "stop comparing yourselves to others." This is a great message but WHAT A CHALLENGE THAT IS. It is honestly difficult to walk through the hall ways without looking at someone else and being jealous of the way they look or act or who their friends are. IT'S HARD. I KNOW. But listen, stop trying to find worth in earthly and temporary things and start finding your worth in JESUS because He loves every hair on your head for God made you PERFECTLY in his image. (Genesis 1:27) As I look back in my journal entries of the last couple of months, so many of the topics are of how I am let down and don't feel good enough for anyone. I know the feeling...

I am sure many of you have had a friend, who once you were so close to and then all of a sudden, something happens and your relationship is falling apart and the only feeling you have for that person is resentment. Oh what a strong word. Say your friend says something bad about you behind your back, or that your friend swooped in on that cute boy you wanted to get to know, or you just don't like the way they are acting lately, should you cut that friend off? My advice is no. So many times I see the tweet along the lines of: DON'T PUT EFFORT INTO THOSE WHO DON'T PUT EFFORT INTO YOU. I always want to reply: CONTINUE TO PERSUE. LOVING PEOPLE NEVER HURT ANYONE. Although this tweet can be relatable for many, there is an exception. I think that people mix up people's character with their intentions. My pastor has preached this phrase many times and I absolutely adore it: Don't judge people by their actions, judge them by their intentions. Judgement I think we...